On being 40 something...

As the saying goes, life begins at 40... it hit me hard to realize that this is very true...i lived my life to the fullest and reaching this age was really the peak... have enjoyed my youth... loved and be loved... got hurt... got dumped.. cried like a river... cursed... broke a heart... lost love... loss weight... lost oneself... lost what i owned... dreamed again... live again... and maybe love again...

I thought my life was just in order... having a good career, own some properties, living with a partner for 15 years, lots of friends, loving family... but sometimes life is just too complicated and so i realized just now... thought i was on top of everything... everything that is in order.. thought i would not ask for more because i practically have everything... love, career, good health, family and friends...

There's got to be some twist along the way... and boy... it blew it my face... nobody is exempted... you can be so good... you can be so loving...faithful... giving... patient... but there's no formula in keeping a good life forever... one day... you will have your share of life... your moment of sadness... your moment of pain, loneliness and unexplainable awe...

I had my share... and have to learn fast on how to recover from all these bad feelings i have... after all, I am now 40...it marked my becoming a person ... a stronger person... lost love at age 40... thought it only happen to bad people (lol)... at 40...lost a partner of 15 years.... thought it only happen in Pinoy Komiks.... at 40 .... have to start dating again... looking for a probable partner... thought it only happen in Barbara Cartland/Mills & Boon Stories... at 40 ....

Then I realized something good must have been stored for me... I always believe that things happen for a reason... maybe God has better plans for me... find a partner and be a Mom... it can never be too late ( I guess) .... be a wife and a Mom... a good idea... something refreshing that helps me get up each morning and try to live again... to dream again...

Now on being 40 something.... I feel good about the idea of being single again... learned from the past and maybe try not too hard to fall in love again... just enjoy life... enjoy the new person in me...enjoy what I have become after this challenging transition from "being with a partner" to being "single again".... after all life is just beginning at 40 something...